But when I do, it feels amazing.
I have a friend who is trying to play with their submissive side. He's someone I have a trusting connection with and he knows I'm a Switch, so he asked me to role play with him over chat. I'm usually a soft top but after previous discussions we've had, I gathered he'd want something tougher. Someone take charge, bossy, powerful. I was right. We've discussed limits before but I'd keep asking him things as we went. Making sure everything was alright with him. Making sure I wasn't too mean or rough. Afterwards we talked more. Went over how he felt and what was good/bad. We both enjoyed it. He even told me he went into subspace a little bit. Which he's the only person to see me go deep into subspace. (Not by him but from a demo at renfest. I may need to post that story at some point.) We talked about his feelings and why he felt those ways. As good of aftercare as we could over chat.
Overall, it was an enjoyable experience that made me realize that I can Domme more than I thought I could. But only to people I have connections with. Maybe I need to keep trying it out like a new skin?